she told me she needed more of my time i said i have scrims at 8 she said "you always have scrims" i said "i know" she asked me to choose i sat with it for a second genuinely considered it then remembered i hadn't watched my VOD from last night yet she cried i felt bad then i opened the VOD anyway i wasn't choosing Overwatch over her i was choosing the person i'm trying to become over the person i was comfortable being she wanted me present i was present just not there every missed date was an 8-12 every ignored text was a comp game every "why do you care so much" was proof she didn't understand what this was she needed someone with more time i needed someone who understood i didn't have any we were both right no breakfast until i VOD no sleep until i study Think the Blobz way.