Penelope 🏳️‍⚧️

Chorus organized a targeted campaign when I was reporting on a creator who scammed many people on this app. He was an indigenous man but doctored his photos with ai. Someone told me Iwas racist for reporting. (Victoria) without looking or knowing anything I said STFU. I’m allowed to set a boundary of who I want to talk to. For months I was gaslit into being told I was racist for setting a boundary. I finally gave up knowing I was right and forced myself to accept I was horrible. Shortly after that I began reporting on Delaney Hall, Victoria found my signal and messaged me on signal. She wanted to know Iwas safe. I ignored it because I felt like this was going to put me at risk and it seemed disingenuous to suddenly care after an entire campaign labeling me racist for simply not wanting to talk to someone. I chose to do what Ifelt was right and make content with the hopes I could repair whatever happened. Mo the went by and we exchanged thousands of messages. Throughout that friendship which I thought it was I grew fond of Victoria and we shared many laughs and our pain together for being survivors of Domestic Violence. We spoke about our families, values, hobbies and at times just memes. During this I still received targeted messages about me telling Victoria to STFU and I was not allowed to say I talk to Victoria she has openly said her and I are friends to me. Victoria stated she would speak to people but the same people kept attacking me More time went by and my therapist asked me “If someone tells you to STFU would that mean they are transphobic” I didn’t need long to answer and I said no not at all people don’t have to talk to people if they don’t want to, it doesn’t mean anything other than they don’t wanna talk. To get defensive is usually coming from a place of trauma and projecting onto another person to use DARVO” My therapist is a Brown man, I’ve been seeing him for years. Many times he said it wasn’t racist. For months I would attend therapy twice a week sometimes going a third time. I just wanted to fix the horrible person Isomehow got convinced I was. I did a social experiment on TikTok and posed the question “if someone tells a trans person to STFU are they transphobic” many of the people said no, some said depends on prior relationship, not one person said it was. Many of the respondents were trans themselves. I posed the question on threads. No answer or reaction from anyone. That’s when I realized this was part of the plan of how I was being triangulated and discredited and also surveiled. For months I welcomed someone into my life thinking they cared for me as a friend but when I brought this experiment up and Iasked them why did they hurt me by making falsless accusations then stonewalled me which is another form of abuse which denies a person of validation, it makes the victim feel like they are being irrational. This all goes to say. What happened with Victoria and how everything was a surveillance broke me. I weeped for weeks because I really grew fond of her and would check in and care about her wellbeing all while the relationship was to isolate me and feed information back about my life to creators in chorus. Patterns don’t lie when they keep happening. I would talk about something with Victoria and then days later the theme for the next “Penny is horrible” would be about what I shared The pattern proves beyond reasonable doubt this occurred when they are linked together. I am not sharing this for any other reason then to tell my story and heal. Yes Iwas abused and manipulated but hurt people hurt people if they never break the cycle of abuse. I wanted to meet Victoria one day so we could share lemonade and look at her garden and walk together with pride as we fight for oppressed people. I was just a data. I still don’t know what I did wrong but I’m sorry Victoria I will be sharing extensive screenshots of some of the conversations I’ve had with Vitoria. You can view them here

It is 12:00 I did not expect to lose an entire day away from the Hackathon. I feel as if I lost already. Trying to get my headspace back in. I was so ready and now with today’s happenings I’m a little distant. That won’t stop Harvy though. During this entire time he watched.