Gaymer Bear

I did it guys. I completed one of my life long dreams. After so many years I've taken my top off in public. I no longer need to feel ashamed and hate who I am. I deserve to be here just like anyone else ❤️

Excited to get back to full training this week, will still take it easy rather than throwing myself back in to my old lift strength. Need some mental resilience to resist all nighters for WoW Forever this week. Feeling beefy though 💪

Okay I might not be muscular enough for the bicep heart trend but here's my attempt!

New fwiend

Fun foggy trip up to Norfolk so far, feeling well and strong. I think my training can be pushed a bit harder when I'm back home, can't wait to get this transformation started! Oh and I won a game at my first commander night! 💪

Christ I'm somehow in too 39% on Only Fans 🤣

Roadtrip time! Norfolk I'm coming for you 🤣

I think I've failed every goal I've set on this fitness journey, but despite every failure; every set back, I still keep pushing on. I don't know if it's determination, strength or insanity at this point and I don't know if I'll ever be where I want to be. But I won't stop 💪

I have such wide hips, I don't really know how to train out of that. Do I just try grow bigger lays so my upper body is bigger in comparison?

What do you guys think I should do to try push 3k followers? And how should we celebrate if I do

Going to be spending a lot of time in this weighted vest! If I live in it I should feel like I'm floating when I take it off right? 🤣

75.6kg now. The scales are at least moving! Need to ramp up the cardio now I'm feeling a bit more recovered!

Well I made it through the workout without hurting myself so I guess this is my new new new day 1 haha. Hopefully I haven't lost too much muscle during this illness. Going to be a hard track to being a muscle bear though, I could settle for muscle otter atleast 💪🤣

Always weird to randomly stumble on a big creator who has blocked you 🤣

I love how compressions feel and I can't wait to look great in them too 🥵

So still no pain. Going to take it as a sign I can start training tomorrow, even if only lightly. The goal of the week is to make it through the week without injury. 75.8kg is the new start point and 70kg is the Christmas goal

My weakness disgusts me, but I feel I'm close. I feel good that Tuesday I can finally resume my training. It's time to fucking do this!

I am still not in pain, I hope this continues so I can finally restart training. Really do feel like I'm starting from scratch though. I have a long hard journey ahead of me

Finally tracked down one of the foundation decks I wanted 🤣 now I just need some local people to play it with

I want November 5th to hurry up. I want to WF some bitchez

Every inch of my body is begging to go to the gym and workout, but I need restraint. I just need to hold on till Tuesday. Take it 100% easy and let it heal, even if I feel better over the weekend I'm going to take it easy. Feeling better doesn't necessarily mean I am better...