All three of my refs <3 <3

Honestly After all this time I think she may have won y’all. I think I’m done with streaming on a regular basis. I can’t describe the fucking shattering pain I felt when I found out someone had been month after month after month been tormenting me in increasingly more hostile waves while trying to get me banned. It has steadily killed my want to stream or even make content. Am I going to be doxxed again? Am I going to get more threats? More weird pictures in my email? I can’t. This isn’t me graduating. But this is me stopping for now. I’ll still do art and chatter and whatnot but… I’m sorry. She won y’all. I can’t. I can’t bring back the passion and excitement. I can’t bring back the happiness and joy. She and her fucking friends won. And I have to just… try to recover or figure out if I need to move on.

“But mom I don’t wanna get out of bed.” He’s as big as I am. He thinks he’s the size of a football. I am no longer allowed to move.

𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘤𝘬𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘧𝘪𝘨𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘶𝘯𝘧𝘶𝘳𝘭𝘴 𝘪𝘵𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘧𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘩 𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘥𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘴 𝘧𝘶𝘳 𝘣𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘵𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘩. 𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘯, 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘥𝘰𝘸 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘢𝘴 𝘰𝘯𝘦, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘸𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘱𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘯𝘦𝘹𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘪𝘵, 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘮𝘺'𝘴 𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘢𝘤𝘩. Noctis' first time taking his collar off to protect his group. Add to that, he sold a favor to a demon off so that he could control his wolf to keep his party safe. Will this prove to be the correct choice? We will find out. Our tragic hero's tale begins to unfold. (I DID THIS SO FAST I LOVE COLOR BLOCKING IN FIGURES)

Am I in fact posting the book I've been writing? Yes. Should you read it? Also y e s. Monthlies give it to you on the P place

And this is why I picked the pale bog

Join a cute Minecraft SMP they said. It'll be fun they said.

I've never been so awestruck by a game...

YOU CANNOT CONVINCE ME THAT GRAHA IS NOT IN LOVE WITH THE WOL MOFO YOU CANNOT. THIS MAN IS Y E A R N I N G. (Yeah I guessed him from the shape of his face don't judge me)

I did not expect a Soylent Green moment with FFXIV this morning during classes, and I am appalled. Such good writing.

Never beaten the game. Never fully played through. Shall we do so together?

Why did nobody tell me that when you go through Shadowbringers, you need to invest in a BOX OF TISSUES

I'm desperate. I wanna start on and stream a Minecraft SMP today WEH Does anyone have any?

Did I in fact just get confirmation that I can use my vtuber as my face for college classes? Yes. Is this Muse College Student Arc? Maybe.

Classes are over. Should I go back to sleep- Nope. Fishing on FFXIV

Me, enjoying my night. I look at the clock. OH SHIT I have TWO HOURS to submit THREE ASSIGNMENTS. Oh, they're easy. Okay!!! Get them done, nearly. One has me record. Okay, I'm a pro! (Not really, don't question me though.) My dog decides NOW is the time to become POSSESSED BY SATAN and break my shelves above my desk, dumping EVERYTHING including GLASS and FIGURINES on me as I record. c: c: I got everything submitted in time though! And I don't THINK anything is broken. It just scared the bajeezums out of me.

Putting on "Not Dead Yet" by NakeyJakey and just vibing through the night. Idk man, his music just lets me feel sometimes

I don't know how to explain to people that FFXIV is really a comfort game for me, and it's genuinely so fulfilling finding a crafting job that I can relax to and enjoy. Something that I genuinely love. It's like I am rediscovering this game. Mind you, I haven't even made it past shadowbringers yet, and I'm so in love with all of this aaAAAA