Madonna reveals there were moments in her life when she contemplated su!cid£, saying one of the most painful moments in her life was when she went through a custody battle for her son. She says she was on tour at the time and she would lay on the floor of her dressing room sobbing. “One of the most painful moments in my life was when i went through a custody battle with my son. Even though my marriage didn’t work out, someone trying to take my child away from me was like, they might just as well k!ll me, and i was on tour at the time and i had to go on stage every night so i would just be laying on the floor of my dressing room sobbing. I really thought it was the end of world, i couldn’t take it. I was abandoned as a child by my own mother, so losing a child was like life repeating itself, i couldn’t accept it”