coaching people to feel love and heal meditation teacher, relational facilitator, spiritual community serial founder
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To receive help requires the vulnerability to ask for help.
Which opens up the possibility for disappointment.
But the biggest pain is the self-abandoning of our own needs.
A few nights ago, I attuned into my belly and tapped into a deep orphaned part. I cried and whimpered like a traumatized dog or Aya ceremony.
The next day, I played video games for the first time in months.
Last night, I began dreaming about it, integrating into my adult self
Video games was falling back to younger coping reactions due to high activation.
Making space for it and coming back from a more resourced place helped integrate
It's taken me years but I finally got to the point of enjoying editing my writing rather than loathing it.
"Basically, constructing your crucible involves extracting your unresolved personal issues embedded in your gridlocked situation and confronting them as an act of integrity. You do this unilaterally, without counting on your partner to do likewise" -- Passionate Marriage
whatever happened to Sebastian Marshall? Was prolific for years and then disappeared from the internet around 2022?
a good essay changes you as you write it
it transforms you, stretches you
and that's why it can be grueling to write
Tai chi has a lot of similarities to BJJ in terms of learning how to use your body frame rather than brute force muscle.
Does BJJ also cover the spiralling energy?
Not every day is supposed to knock your socks off.
Some days are low, boring, routine.
Learn to appreciate the sun and also the dark.
I might be going into my shamanic phase.
Rather than ideal parent, ive been recalling my spirit animals that came to me on my first meditation retreat a lot lately.
All those years of teachers telling me to ignore all that magical and fantastical world, got a lot to recover
Vibe coded an email webapp that makes inbox zero SO MUCH FASTER.
- use IMAP and local sqlite database to sync and flag changes.
- do manual sync to push changes
- use SQL queries for better views like: list all by senders, sorted by most at top
- all keyboard shortcuts
Can rapidly flag each email to archive or delete with keyboard and then do one manual sync to push the changes
Default clients are so annoying where you have to only archive or only delete and theres a slight delay after each action.
Hat tip to Ben, I used his base app to start but I made a lot of improvements on top like the senders view and select all functionality and faster syncs.
His genius was the local db and keyboard shortcuts.
youtu.be/jhd_AhwR7V0?si=TlOw…
X axis is individual - collectivism.
Y axis is alignment.
High alignment, collectivist can be a village and/or cult.
Low alignment, individual can be a lonely incel or a person undergoing a dark night time between worlds.
Ie moral valence isnt guaranteed in any quadrant