Everything is fine. I’m totally going to get some rest. Nothing is wrong.
Alone? HAHA! Who’s alone? I’m not alone! Pssshhh—!
I don’t miss his arms— or his fluffy hair in my face, or his snoring, or his warm body, or the scent of his cologne, or the—
( the kiss was very welcomed. It.. felt invigorating and warm, like he was being healed and loved and.. then it was over.
His lips trailed after Datu’s, almost begging for it to continue…
Then his hands reached back for Datu’s.
He was being left.. +
I.. don’t want to split with you, if we can help it. I want to be with you, but.. right now I don’t know if it’s what’s needed.
( squeezing his hand the moment he felt Datu take his. )
I want to be there with you.. I want you to be with me. And.. we can explore +
Replying to @ByTheShield
-- one thing I want to do before we go our separate ways.
[He grabbed his hand and held it tight.]
Can I have that?
( oh, how badly he wants to just hug him and make up, but he can’t. Not yet. Not this soon. )
Kayoko was a great leader, but using fear to destroy her enemies, and sacrificing the innocent…
I had questioned if my choices really were for the people, and.. it was clear my +
Replying to @ByTheShield
-- for the cooking.]
I really did mean what I said though...I really do care about you. I hope you could one day forgive me.
+ decision was the right one…
I’m just sorry I never shared that choice with you, too, but.. after what I read in your journal..
I didn’t want to risk the safety of the others.
I.. put them over you. Over us.
And.. maybe I need a moment to think. +
… we’ve both lied, and we’ve both been betrayed by each other. And others..
I.. don’t blame you for what you’ve said. You had every right to hate me, to yell and be upset with me.
But I thought we were done, split up.. I even knocked you too hard +
I know we didn’t.
And that’s also why I just— why I thought leaving would be for the best. Rip the bandage off quickly…
Yeah.. it’s been rough getting to sleep. I don’t remember the last time I’ve rested..
( he was quiet for a moment, sniffling a bit before drying his face one last time and nodding. )
Yeah- yeah.. that.. sounds good. I’ll stay tonight then.. I don’t know..
( he really didn’t know what was left to do. What /to/ do. It was pure limbo for him, since he wasn’t +
Replying to @ELLORANSHIELD
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middle of the night to say he had a nightmare , that was probably it. )
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+ bound to the brigade currently, but.. that was everything he’s known since he was a little child. Datu was his only sliver of what normal life could be like. )
You.. still have my toothbrush?
( a very light chuckle, trying to break up the ache in himself. +







