my favourite flavour of jlairaja is platonic ajim who are really physically affectionate with each other but also have a constant (friendly) competition going on about who can spoil claire the most
like it wasn’t just the life and death of it all, it was the sudden need to lie to everyone important in his life, the fact he couldn’t even have a crush without her being dragged into the mess, this ongoing fear that he wouldn’t be strong enough not because of anything he did
but because of what he was, the knowledge that an entire species was basically dependant on him for their safety .. merlin I’m afraid we have to kill you
I am so thankful that I decided to watch the spoiler review that came out because it would’ve been so much worse to go into the movie and be completely blindsided