Bedioc

When I say I have no luck in life, I really mean it. This tweet won't be funny, sorry but you'll understand why I haven't been drawing much lately. So, as many of you know, I was supposed to undergo eye surgery soon. I already had a surgery date, and in the meantime, I've been wearing protective lenses while waiting for it. The plan was: go abroad for the surgery and finally sign the publishing contract for my manga. But then… a new problem came up. During the pre-op exams for my eyes, they asked for an MRI scan and it showed I have an infection in the mastoid bone (behind the ear, near the brain). I was told it’s pretty serious, with potential risks like a brain abscess if untreated. Because of that, my eye surgery has been pushed back to September. I thought: “Okay, I’ll treat the mastoid infection first, and my dad can help with the medical costs.” But at the same time, my dad told me he’s completely out of money. So the only money I have left is the €8000 from the fundraiser you all helped me with. Now I’m stuck having to choose: Either I use that money to treat the mastoid infection, and postpone the eye surgery and my manga contract for who knows how long... Or I go ahead with the eye surgery, but leave a potentially serious infection untreated, and I honestly don’t know how much time I have before it becomes dangerous. Everything is falling apart, and I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m already going through a really heavy period mentally I’ve been struggling with suicidal thoughts and burnout and now this just added more weight on top of it. Anyway, I have an appointment with the anesthesiologist tomorrow. I’m probably going to tell them I can’t afford to do the mastoid surgery right now, and that I’ll focus on the eye surgery and my manga instead. Thank you to those who are still here, and who continue to support me.