chiarth

As an ex atheist who sought the truth, going wherever cold and rigorous logic lead, I can attest to this from personal experience. Against my upbringing and inclination, and very much against my will, logic forced me to conclude that sodomy, polygamy, adultery, divorce, fornication, and contraception were not only imprudent and ignoble, but grave moral evils. I found none of my fellow atheists, who so boasted themselves to be champions of science and reason, to look at basic scientific facts. Their arguments in favor of disbelief were weak to the point of parody, and one and all had some sort of nonsensical psuedo-religious crockpottery (anarchy or socialism or environmentalism or transhumanism) to occupy the natural human yearning for the divine which was otherwise absent from their lives. So I started reading the SUMMA THEOLOGICA of Thomas Aquinas. Well, for a man of logic, once one opens the most precise and rigorous thinker since Euclid, there is no escape. So I started looking in ernest. I prayed, thinking I would not be answered. I challenged Him to show Himself, to prove himself, to give me evidence. Be careful what you wish for. I asked for water. I was overwhelmed with floods. Miracles answered, and saved my life. Apparitions visited and spoke to me. I had visions beyond time and space. I experienced rapture and ecstacy. I saw God. Why was I shown these things when many more deserving are left thirsting in the dark for some sign of the Eternal and Almighty, the source and summit of all being? I have no idea. No one could be less worthy. I was a blasphemous atheist who never let a day pass when I did not mock and belittle Christ and all Christian things. My contempt was absolute. But He came to me, and now I am his. Seeing is believing, but one has to start believing to start seeing.