When you have the will to kill, you have to let it go, I fucking poured it into this track with my little brother, forced ourselves to dump the grief and loss of the last decade into song so that a dark part of my soul was left imprinted in the audio through symbiotic plasmodiosis! Thank you Benjamin! @DJSasquatch2020 this album is really turning into something special.

I woke up late for work and rushed out the door, I looked across the street from my new apartment to my old apartment, and saw the prize winning pink roses 🌹 I transplanted under the window of that building, in full bloom In late October in Western New York, and I was suddenly struck with a realization of perspective. I was so mad when I lost that apartment after three years but only the mystery of the almighty would engineer me into a better fitting apartment directly across the street so I can loook at the roses I crossbred and planted, every morning in full bloom. God is good, all the time even in our lowest moments.

If you don’t pay attention to that cardboard pizza, your life is going to seem a whole lot shittier and other self-help tips by Joel John, Michael McClure!

The time has come to head into the wilderness for 40 days and 40 nights Wo to you so to you so to you the end is nigh! Repent sinners and saints alike repent.

I think I’m gunna have to kill the podcast off again, super lame but necessary for survival, can’t find guests or a booker to save my life. I work like 78 hours in a factory a week and I just don’t have time to try and figure out the universe anymore. Plus there is no point if they put fake folks in my downfeed, I am a character. I don’t wanna interview other characters, I wanna interview real people.

Honestly, I just post vague, and cryptic things that turns out actually piss people off in real life lol 😝, and that’s the greatest gift I’ve ever got 😂 knowing that someone was mad at me in my real life because of something I cryptically post while 😵😵😵😵trolling on the Internet. None of this shit is real guys. It’s the Internet. 🛜 ive actually done the greatest thing Any troll could do. I’ve got the government to investigate me, more than once for something I’ve never done, just based on peoples suspicions of me, anytime the government wastes resources I get giddy.

I get followed by a lot of spooks, and I don’t mean Black people! Professional DICs if you know what I mean. It’s not my fault it’s how I came on the scene, by that I mean, I shouldn’t have ejaculated at the crime scene. Leave apprehension you can feel within the rhyme scheme. She was super smart, great Looks anywhere else she’d be an 11, But this is Upstate New York they call em’ a Cornell 7. Can I ever be defeated spit a bar so hot that I’m not going to heaven? Can God nuke a burrito so hot he cannot eat it? Next time I’m feeling depleted. I’ll call my Jew lawyer up confess a crime just so we can go beat it. Fuck I’m feeling like Ye when he realized he was the sacrificial forth coming of Jesus! I used to make faith based music, now I make revenge porn for the ear. Nobody needs this!

If YouTube actually cared about it’s users, it would put out a clear and concise user guide, but most importantly it would support free speech at all costs.

If you ever played my music, I really appreciate it. I know it’s never gonna go anywhere. They will take it down from all the major places shortly after I die. It doesn’t get enough plays to keep up. My goal was the eternal life through sound. It is the only way after all, but I Failed. Much like the moron I met the other day that thought Jesus Christ was a first and last name, most people will never understand what I was talking about, But if you were out there for real and it’s not just me in the universe, and you got even a little bit of it, I appreciate you. I have become little more than a phantom in real life a Spectre in my own living waking world, I go to a job where no one knows my name, and live in a world where no one could care less for my thoughts, my most sacred possessions, much less my feelings.

The best I can hope for is spooky action at a distance, quantum entanglement, I’ll never know if I made any good decisions or conjured any kind of impact on the world. I’m positive I haven’t directly impacted anyone, becoming both politically and religiously agnostic, replacing the overbearing diagnostic attitude that once prevailed within me. The only measurement of peace I could hope to attain is in this disconnection, the sweet sweet disassociation of eternal unrecognition. The proverbial head in the sand come to pass.

Where is the best place to research my genealogy without taking a DNA test? People ask my ethnicity and I just say American Mutt.

She took all the things that made me, and left only insanity.

She said “I don’t want to ride your Mary-go-round any more your too much of a giggling cynic” I said “there used to be a word for that it’s hebephrenic”

"It amazes me: the sobering power of human death. It outweighs all words, all arguments; it is the ultimate force. It coerces your attention and your time, and it leaves you changed. Philip K. Dick The Transmigration of Timothy Archer I feel like all space and time led me to this loss, at this moment, and these words, on the only day I could process this death, and still go forward.