the john maus lyric where it goes "i'd cut off all my fingers just to touch you" is quite eitakuei

i like to think he has high but specific sensory needs which ren is kind of great for because they can just do whatever

i do have those scenarios fortunately

my shuake content preference becomes incredibly obvious looking at my 217k+ words dedicated to them reuniting when they're older. i need to invent new scenarios

their expressions of desire are unique and strong because their own selves are very unique and strong. but if I had to pick at the end of the day I think ren's "obsession" is perhaps more mentally overwhelming in the long term, especially given the circumstances

in the debate of Who Is More Obsessed Ren Vs Akechi I think overall ren's yearning/longing and desperation to love is stronger whereas akechi's extreme need for novelty/love in a life he hates makes him behave overall more inappropriately. it's like comparing spears and shotguns

duudyeytwfwthefwjwgwhsgjwgajsgejeh Having the more stressful days ever and akechis always just like I should buy the individual who unfortunately treats me kindly a drink and look at the tendons in his knuckles

[after a full day of vomiting & hair loss & acne coverups & sweating into his eyebrows & eye twitching & scratching his scalp sore & performatively taking pictures of a latte & unhealthy behavior rivalcoping] text sent by Akechi Goro: Let's go somewhere together

all those moments akechi was on the damn phone with shido behind the scenes. get home. lights not even on. call shido in the dark. call shido in smelly alleyway. call shido at 2 in the morning. i hope he had intricate fantasies about peeling shido's veins out to help fall asleep

THANK YOU BEST OF LUCK!!

So cute so cute

i'm so overdue to this knowledge but it's ok it's another christmas

did not realize the post-credits cutscene where the audience catches a glimpse of akechi was titled this. ok......

my favorite lesser acknowledged p5 location is the leblanc bathroom. the height of akechi's mania has him sniffing the ceramic sink for akira's toothpaste stains. We all go through hard times his is just permanent