Men b like: it’s so fucking disgusting u keep remembering the things i did to u

He’ll be almost disgusted with you that you like or love him. Like..he’ll punish you for it. And you’ll wonder what the fuck you did to deserve being tortured. He’ll test you to “see how much you care” and you’ll lose every time. He’ll tear you down and turn you inside out.

Tolerating someone's disrespect will NEVER earn you their respect. The only thing it will earn you is more bullshit. You think that staying will earn their appreciation and better treatment but the truth is, you're just showing them how well you can take their shit. FUCK that.

Once you realize that you were obsessed with the IDEA of someone, and they’ve proven that they are NOT that person…killing your fantasy of who genuinely wanted them to be to you... Don't try to revive it. It's dead. You've seen them for who they truly are. The sweetness has gone sour. The beauty has turned ugly. And still, you’ll try to convince yourself it’s a misunderstanding. You understood correctly, that’s why it’s so sickening, hurtful and hard to fucking swallow when you’re forced to watch your idea of them shatter into a million pieces. Don't torture yourself trying to revive it or pull the wool back over your own eyes just because the truth hurts too much to accept. It is what it is. You can’t change them or change the truth. It’s hard and incredibly painful to realize someone just isn't who you desperately hoped they were. But do you know what else is hard and hurtful? Constantly trying to convince yourself it's not true, just to be let down/shocked/crushed/DEEPLY disappointed OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER again. Let them go. It’s time to accept you’re more attached to a falsehood than the real person in front of you. The real person that has CRUSHED you. Devastated you. Humiliated you. You’ve seen the cold and cruel person beneath the mask. Stop squinting and trying to see someone else.

Sometimes, it feels impossible for you to let go of someone because it’s just so unfair. So fucking unfair. You know how much you gave them. You’ll eventually realize how little they deserved it, and feel fucking CHEATED. There’s no justice. The truth feels too unbearably cruel and hurtful to accept so you keep searching for signs that there must be some sort of misunderstanding. You hold on hoping maybe if you get some sort of explanation or some grand declaration of their hidden deep feelings for you that you’ll feel better about being so taken advantage of. But the truth is, there is nothing they can say that will heal the parts of you that feel so broken and hurt by their mistreatment. It will hurt to let but not as much as it’s hurting you to hold on. What do you need to hear in order to let go? Maybe you need to hear them say this and spell it out for you: “I never cared about you. I never actually loved you, I didn’t even like you. I loved what you gave me, and that’s why it made me so angry when you’d question me or finally consider walking away from me. I didn’t want to lose your devotion. You worshipped me, and it made me feel really good about myself. I thought you were pathetically obsessed with me. Sometimes I wondered why. Must be something wrong with you. The truth is, I wished you’d just keep giving and stop asking me how I felt or why I gave so little. I was happy with our arrangement. You ruined it by realizing I didn’t give a fuck about you.” Their actions have said this to you. Many times. Are you finally ready to listen? Yes, it’s incredibly unfair but what’s more unfair is wasting your precious life trying to find hidden meaning in something quite clear and simple. You know in your heart that they do not feel the way that you do. You’ve sat and realized, “I’d never treat them like this..” That’s because YOU cared, and they… well, you know. And now you’re finally ready to accept it and let go of them.