my favorite variation of this (stumbled upon accidentally) has been charging my phone with a 3-inch cable.
makes it a lot harder to use while charging, and since i have an iphone 13 mini i have to charge once or twice/day
then i just end up doing other stuff
if i learned anything from The Social Reckoning it’s that modern social media algorithms bias shares *at least* an OOM higher than any other engagement metric
super easy to bot / bandwagon comments but the best performing content is always the most shared
i think @thelastpsych blog struck such a chord with people (and continues to) because it speaks to the disowned shadow in a direct way that nobody else dared (or yet dares) to with ruthless honesty
one thing i find fascinating upon rewatching YCSE is that it's entirely plausible that Holmes doesn't explicitly *lie* about a single thing in the film.
in the beach patio scene, when Nathan grills her on whether she's ever lied, she defines lying as "intentionally saying something that is untrue."
paired with the linguistic sleight of hand she stands by wrt the "this device CAN...", her (ostensible) confusion around the "Who's on first" bit, and her (alleged) ignorance of the Billy/A24 deal... it's not out of the realm of possibility to say that she's carefully constructed her reality (and/or memory; assuming she has lingering trauma) to only include True information that supports her narrative/case
the rest is up to Billy and whoever the fuck else wants to pick up the pieces, and you can see her lean on Billy to (messily) defend her, continually keeping her hands clean. she slips through the interrogations like sand
something i'm thinking a lot about wrt this film is Malcom Gladwell's book "Talking To Strangers"
the book is basically about how nobody is any good at reading other people. in fact we're actively bad at it; monkeys and coin tosses are more accurate lie detectors than humans...
another thing i can't help but think about is the breakdown of the dualities of manipulator/manipulated, victim/perpetrator -- i'm highly dubious of anyone who left the film with a clear conclusion on "what happened," who's in the right or wrong, and characters' intentions/motivations/etc
sure we can put people on a scale from most to least evil but i think that's the least interesting part of the film
BOTH of my theories about you can see everything I feel confident in saying I was right about and I desperately need to talk about them
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ethics in journalism is a huge thing here obviously but I think the fact that they showed that it happened is important. the other thing is that they included the bit at the end when Amanda asked Nathan *that* question. if they hadn't included it and we were left thinking "hey they should have addressed that somehow" I think it would have looked really bad. and I think it's really bad A24 agreed what they agreed to. but the fact that they showed what they agreed to made it transparent, so ???? idk I think that was the right thing to do with the decision they made. I don't like the concept of this kind of thing but if they had tried to keep that hushed, it would have been so scummy. visibly including it was the right move.
my two theories were: this doc is going to portray her as innocent somehow, which I think they sortof achieved, or at least tried to introduce a large doubt about her guilt. personally I think this was all clearly strategized from her and her husband's end. yes the man is highly controlling and manipulative, but not for one second do I believe she didn't know all the workings about finances, and not for one second do I buy "oh her brain just works differently." my other theory is that nathan falls in love with her or at least develops feelings for her. I don't know if he'd say that himself, but by the end of it it was clear that he did indeed care about her in a way that I suspect yes, he was trying to protect her just a little bit somehow.
wild wild doc. wish I could watch all three hours of it for the first time over right now. unbelievable shit. I'd let this man hold a loaded gun to my head and trust him not to pull the trigger
another detail that's just hitting me after rewatching:
the words "see" & "everything" are cut off in the movie poster. they (the bottoms of the words "see" & "everything") are also cut off in the title frame of the film. obv way more to unpack but love the attention to detail
what surprised me most about this scene was that Billy jumped in and made himself look extra bad even though the laser chemist guy (Joe?) seemed like he was defending the intention of Theranos' vision
using Elon to exemplify hyperstition and the actual rapid development of EV...
the anxious ruminating voice in my head:
one way to know if you’re in anxious rumination or not:
phrase your core concern as a simple question e.g. “what if I’m not good enough to get what I want?” then, take a good hard look at that question and ask a follow-up: “is this an answerable question?”
if the subject of your rumination is “am I working hard enough to get the results I want”, that’s an answerable question, with a testable hypothesis - see if more effort produces more results
if the rumination is more “will I ever be good enough”, that’s an unanswerable question. you could circle that one forever (and many people do!)
in the latter case, I’m not saying “so just snap out of it”. rather, recognize that you’re in a fear state, and what your mind is trying to access is calm, via a sense of safety. that anxious voice in your head thinks you need to answer that unanswerable question in order to feel safe
but you don’t. you can feel safe in the uncertainty. your job then is to get yourself there… which means allowing yourself to let go of the constant questioning
you can* see everything
Replying to @quasimatt
you can’t see everything. but you have the capability of seeing everything i show you
can someone eli5 this for me? i am technically retarded
interpretability might be the most important scientific problem in the world right now, as I don't think we can solve alignment if we don't know what we're building. I think I have good news about it. I co-authored early work in mechanistic interpretability at OpenAI and came away pessimistic, because neural networks appeared to fold into arbitrary tangled knots. years later, I started openai's first large-scale automated interpretability project, finding about 2% of neurons legible with the primitive tools we had
with modern agentic tools and a much closer look, the picture looks totally different. the vast majority in models up to trillions of parameters are legible, and their circuits beautiful. many famous examples of tangled neurons turned out to be misunderstood. The roadblocks I expected mostly aren't there. I now think ambitious interpretability will be solved by the time we need it most, and possibly quite soon, as automated scientists keep improving. it may be a bitter lesson for interpretability: the simple thing, at absurd scale, works
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> inspiration is the discovery of the greater meaning of something that seems initially unimpressive
one of my favorite creativity quotes i have written on a sticky note on my desk:
"read 1000 books for every one you write"
ppl talk a lot about this idea "create more than you consume" and consumption is bad etc etc but have you ever considered you might not b consuming enough?
ppl who meditate 5+ days/week:
what’s your practice? how long/frequent is the sweet spot for you? what other practices have you experimented with before arriving at ur current practice?
i notice in gym culture everyone talks about their workout splits but meditators r vague af
on sprezzatura:
my freshman yr of high school i asked the most jacked guy at my school (asian dude) what his workout routine was. he said he just did yoga a few times a week
believed him for years until i actually started lifting and realized how much work it takes to get yoked
something funny i’m noticing is that a year ago all i wanted was “mild to moderate okayness” and now that i kinda have that, i yearn for nothing less than “deep okayness”
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