𝐌𝐀𝐃𝐀𝐌 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐋𝐕𝐔𝐍.

⠀i belonged to no one. not the right daughter. not the right sister. not the right friend. not the right lover.

⠀“ father, was i good .ᐣ ” ⠀“ you did it. ” ⠀“ but was i good .ᐣ ” ⠀“ that’s not the point. ” ⠀“ what’s the point if i wasn’t good .ᐣ ”

⠀you were a child. you should never have had to fight the way you did. [ i know you had to be strong. but you deserved to be soft. ]

⠀i have bled for duty, and i would bleed for it still. yet i will always resent it, for what it has cost me. you.

⠀what are your intentions .ᐣ i’m ashamed by mine. when i’m thinking too much to realize i’m unkind. pretend that i’m nicer than i’ll ever be. i am selfish and deluded, enjoy my hypocrisy.

⠀did you get enough love, my little dove .ᐣ why do you cry .ᐣ