@nescientmind

learning

Joined June 2025
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Having an inner monologue is important, because if you think out loud the masses will literally look for reasons to kill you.
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I’ve enjoyed spending my Sunday(last day as a free man) posting with @sunsequel2 on this website. No regrets.
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Remembering this post today because I posted some “it’s over” ah shit and it’s getting many views. I need to try and stop being a little bitch even online because it leaks out. Unless I can transmute sadness into something actually novel, it’s probably better to hold back on it.
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@landosemberyOct 12
Moving in with a girl was helpful to my mental health in a very specific way. Before, I would allow myself to wallow in pessimism, "we deserve a little despair as a treat". But when you live with someone you love your pessimism becomes infectious, so now both of you are sad and you hate to see her sad so you go "hey, I was just being a little bitch, I didn't actually mean it". And if you both do this, if you both make an earnest attempt at being happy for one another, then BAM suddenly you ARE happy because being happy for someone else is the only happiness there is (conversely, depression was a self-directed narcissistic state of mind in my case). I suspect having kids is like this times 1000x.
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Fuck that post was so cringe and gay. But deleting is even gayer. I’ll just keep posting, keep the feed flowing like how a stream cleanses excrement
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These crash out posts get too many interactions. But I don’t think I’ll delete them as I did in the past. The goal is to document how my feelings change, and to potentially warn a young man with a soul like mine about the dangers of life.
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I’m so scared that one day I’ll lose a bet or something, and as punishment have to let a guy suck my dick. As I’m subjected to this as a straight man, just trying to endure, his five-o-clock shadow scratches against my balls and it feels so good. That would be really bad.
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It’s over, I say that with peace. Almost 24. There’s no more possibility of beautiful love. I need to orient myself towards helping people and being able to die quickly. Maybe a firefighter or something. I’m a coward scared of death and pain. I need to become brave
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It’s a merciful thing that I lack the personal attractiveness to really get deeply involved with women. Her knee on top of mine- such simple contact has haunted me for years. Had we kissed, that would’ve truly destroyed me forever.
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When drunk, you’re always supposed to die by one of these -bar brawl -apprehension by authorities gone wrong -suicide after being rejected by a woman That’s why waking up the day after there’s much regret over behavior when drunk. You were supposed to just die.
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I love being 5’10.5, in the middle of the distribution you can find smaller guys to molest, as well as larger guys to molest you.
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The sun is shining so beautifully, I’ve forgotten my own body. My troubles, they have no where to land.
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Wish I had more of a natural inclination towards Christianity, Christian girls>buddhist girls. Imagine a girl contemplating impermanence while you’re fucking her Last week a Korean girl with mochi cheeks invited me to church. SO IDEAL. still can’t force myself to go
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Money’s serious stuff- past vitality and freedom crystallized. Really the only time it makes sense to transfer money is when you love someone deeply, like father to son. Only other way to get money from someone is convincing them to sin- sex, drugs, gluttony. Forgetfulness.
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Bit dramatic. Kind of interesting now that I’ve been assigned real responsibilities and people to manage. Still sucks to have the entire day eaten up by work though. Just going to learn as much as I can so that by the time I inherit my father’s company I will be competent.
ball boy@nescientmindOct 23
I’m actually so tired from wageslaving 12 hours per day. How do people escape it without super high conscientiousness? When I’m in it and suffering I lack energy to innovate, when I’m NEET and happy I lack the fear to motivate me to make money
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I’m too retarded and immature to engage in self-righteous anger. I will stop trusting this emotion from now on.
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I believe wholeheartedly that men don't want to be promiscuous, women make them this way by tying their self esteem to sex.
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“Everyone is exactly where they belong, from the moment they are born, that’s why no one in the world has ever moved in any way whatsoever.”
MR. Blake@moneymancer1Oct 23
Replying to @nescientmind
You are where you belong otherwise you’d be where you want to be loser
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All my life, my greatest male friends and the only women I’ve been interested in, they have all been the oldest child. What dat mean?
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Men actually ejaculate inside women without having a 2 million dollar principle package per potential progeny on standby
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I’m actually so tired from wageslaving 12 hours per day. How do people escape it without super high conscientiousness? When I’m in it and suffering I lack energy to innovate, when I’m NEET and happy I lack the fear to motivate me to make money
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