you seem pretty healed for a girl who never got an apology

i gave you a place to burn. i was a field of daisies once.

اكره الناس

there is a girl inside me i don’t recognize. she isn’t another side of me. she feels like someone i was never meant to become. her thoughts bleed into mine, words tangled behind her teeth, a mind too loud for a body gone completely quiet.

i don’t like waking up in the morning. the things that wait for me, that wait for my return, they hurt me.

oh i get it now. what happened fundamentally and irrevocably changed me forever

you deserve to be loved without feeling like your worth depends on how much you can endure for them

sometimes i just want to disappear

so what if i need to hear that everything is going to be okay a hundred times

you cry every night, wishing all those tears would wash away the love you have for them. they never do. you still love them in the morning.

the goal is to sleep at night without that weird, nauseous feeling in my stomach. to live my days without feeling like something is wrong or missing. to stop feeling guilty for things that were never entirely in my control.

روتيني المتوفي

ever loved someone so much that you tried to understand them even while they were hurting you?