I realize that my reaction of “seeming like I don’t care” the next day after a fight between another person was specifically because I was going through this

I forgot that I’m not actually clean and have been relapsing a lot, it’s only a matter of time until I’m found out maybe

Who up feeling suicidal for ? No reason at all

I’m so scared to go out

Something bad will happen to me

I feel like I’m being tortured and punished for going through what I did when I was younger

The thoughts to be used are horrible the thoughts of me being assaulted are so prominent it’s so easy to daydream about I cant help it I’m so scared to go out

god I have so much anxiety and I have to go to school and I have to be able to focus and not worry about things that could possibly happen to me but just as much I hope they do happen to me I deserve the worst

Genuinely I feel so much more love out of sending explicit photos of myself it’s so disgusting I wish I was dead I wish I didn’t have to think this way I literally can’t find a purpose more than that

what’s my purpose if it’s not to be a toy

tweetinf from the computa

I’m FAT and UGLY and have to DIE

Ok

If u wanna commit suicide so bad then do it