I just took a piss outside and it’s so hot my penis melted and my urine evaporated at the apex while still climaxing.

Blessings, my dear old friend and lover. I wish you nothing but happiness, peace, and all the beautiful things this life could ever offer you. I’ve pondered and prayed since our last conversation, reflecting on everything that was, everything that could have been, and everything I know I can no longer change. You have always been someone I believed deserved more than I could give. I know I’ve hurt you deeply, and I know that no words I write now can return the time you spent waiting, the lonely nights, or the sadness you endured. Those nights filled with sorrow and longing are feelings I’m all too familiar with myself. Perhaps that is part of what makes knowing I caused you that kind of pain so difficult to accept. What I told you before, that you deserved better than me, I meant. I know those words hurt you, but in my own flawed way, I thought I was trying to protect you from being hurt by me any further. I understand the paradox in that. An oxymoron, so to speak: trying to spare someone pain by becoming the very reason they hurt. There is an old saying that if you truly love someone, you must sometimes set them free. I knew letting you go would hurt, but I couldn’t bear the thought of continuing to hurt you. So, in a sense, I tried to push you away. I thought that if I made it easier for you to leave me, perhaps you could find the happiness I feared I could never give you. I cannot say I handled it the right way, and I cannot pretend that my intentions erase the pain my actions caused. I only wish you had never had to hurt because of me. There is something else I never told you, something I’ve carried with me even before our last conversation. I never truly understood why you chose me. I never knew what you saw in me that made you want to stay. I’ve always felt as though I wasn’t good enough for you, and even now, despite everything that has happened, that feeling has never entirely left me. I wish you the world and then some. I wish you a love that brings you peace, a happiness that doesn’t leave you questioning your worth, and a life filled with the kind of warmth and certainty that I have never quite known how to find for myself. And yet, I’ve always struggled with the belief that these are things I cannot give you, especially because I’ve never looked at the world the way most people seem to.

I Won’t Be Back - Revised Edition Gotta humble myself some more. I won’t be back. For the me that returns will never be the same. For everyone who’s ever said I’ve changed and meant ill intent— good.

I’m not suicidal. I turned down the US, Illuminati and now Russia.. Why can’t we all be friends.. I trained for protection, discipline, self-respect and peace not for murder. I did it because people told me I couldn’t.. Because my father was a paratrooper. I didn’t join to bully

Russia trying to hire me.. They getting that desperate?

Nothing in this world is worth finding it all lies within the unseen.

Just had a moment where I had to thank God and be grateful again because I still get ultra vivid flashbacks of when I had my emergency red light jump during a hurricane and still lived to tell the tale. How many paratroopers or parachutists in general can say that I wonder?