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Bunch of people losing their shit: how does he have the time to be Stripe's CEO AND read Brothers Karamazov?
Same people are surprised by how fast the most effective operators text back. I think all comes from the same place: short feedback loops, which build causal models.
If you act on ideas *fast* they don't stay as ideas long which means you get feedback on errors *fast*. This compounds over time and all your models become causal: they track the actual moving structures of the world. If you don't act on ideas fast they proliferate and become these big castles, these flights-of-fancy that might be barely tethered to reality.
Brothers Karamazov was Einstein’s favorite novel, a verdict he shared with Freud, Hillary Clinton, and Murakami. Dostoyevsky was Pope Francis’s favorite author. Indeed, he approvingly quoted Elder Zosima; perhaps an interesting case of art molding life. At the risk of betraying my relative shallowness and inferiority, I confess that I did not love it.
Written in the shadow of the death of Dostoyevsky’s son (also Alyosha), and, more broadly, after a life of repeated tragedy, Karamazov attempts most of all to address the problem of evil in Christianity. Ivan presents a trenchant argument, asking how the suffering of children may possibly be explained given the existence of a supposedly benevolent God (Dostoyevsky collected real court cases for Ivan), culminating in Ivan’s famous return of the ticket.
The book gives some sense for how dislocating the nineteenth century must have been. The ascendant authority of science, the spread of materialist philosophy, the doctrine of evolution, the aftermath of the French revolution and its supposedly enlightened empiricism: in Karamazov, we get the feeling that finding some kind of consilience wasn’t just an abstract philosophical challenge, but a source of intense spiritual torment. If inherited tradition is no longer an adequate basis for faith, why would we rationally cleave to an apparently irrational theology? All of this was in the air: it was only two years later that Nietzsche declared God to be dead.
Perhaps demonstrating the utility of the novel as a medium, Dostoyevsky does not even attempt to solve the problem, but merely to illustrate a response, showing how individuals (Alyosha, Elder Zosima) may in the face of the inherent injustice present in the world nonetheless pursue lives of benevolence and charity: theodicy-by-example. In so doing, Dostoyevsky tacitly concedes that none of the teetering justifications expounded over the centuries can actually survive critical pressure and be defended through pure logic.
Ultimately, though, I don’t find myself being fully compelled by Dostoyevsky’s characterization of the problem or his proposed solution. As another sprawling confrontation with and attempt to reconcile the problem of evil, Grossman’s Life and Fate is maybe a useful counterpoint. Unlike Karamazov, Life and Fate shows actual people confronting great wickedness. Ikonnikov, a small but important figure, is ordered to help in the construction of a gas chamber. He refuses, with full awareness of the consequences that will ensue. The Karamazovs, by contrast, live middle class lives unvisited by greater events. Ivan has money, education, and leisure; his torment is the invention of his own mind and thus a kind of self-indulgence. Even Alyosha, the novel’s most sympathetic character, is never tested. His crisis is spiritual: there is a slightly comic kerfuffle about Zosima’s noisome corpse, which challenges his faith, but no circumstance requires him to stake his life or even his comfort.
Thus, a fundamental issue with Karamazov is that the problems of the book are on some level fake: they’re the self-inflicted derangements of febrile and dysregulated men. How much can or should we learn from the insane?
To be charitable to Dostoyevsky, we might say that he understood the spiritual dislocation of the era that later gives rise to the larger evils of totalitarianism in the twentieth, even prefiguring them in the Grand Inquisitor. (Dostoyevsky explored this theme in greater detail a few years earlier in Demons.) Camus in 1959: “The real nineteenth century prophet was Dostoevsky, not Karl Marx.” In this interpretation, the problems in Karamazov set the stage for those in Life and Fate.
Maybe. At least as a work of art, I’m not sure that this anticipation is enough to make the book stand on its own. In Karamazov, one continually wonders why the brothers don’t just pull it together. Dostoyevsky seems to transpose his own inner depths and spiritual torment onto his characters, but most people are not tortured writers, and it does not feel that the unhingedness of the characters is ever fully earned.
In attempting to address evil, Grossman’s conclusion is ostensibly similar to Dostoyevsky’s: the only resolution lies in senseless kindness. For Dostoyevsky, this message is embodied in Alyosha, who represents a kind of fervent innocence. For me, however, it’s not clear that Alyosha ever fathoms the realities and extremities of evil, and hence he’s not fully persuasive: does he even reckon with the misdeeds of his brothers?
Grossman is willing to engage head on. Far beyond gruesome newspaper anecdotes or neurotic and volatile siblings, Ikonnikov directly experiences the Holodomor in Ukraine and then the murders of the Jews. He has no patience for the kind of revolutionary ideas that animated Ivan’s contemporaries: “whenever we see [the dawn of an eternal good], the blood of old people and children is always shed.”
Alyosha believes in the Church and is willing to set aside its failures to address suffering. The book closes on his declaration that all shall rise again. That is, Alyosha does not accept the tragedy of Ilyusha, an innocent boy’s death, but rather seeks to deny and escape it. “We shall see each other and shall tell each other with joy and gladness all that has happened.”
Life and Fate flatly rejects providential resolution. The heavens may be empty, and there is no greater meaning in evil. We can simply choose (freedom the other great theme of Life and Fate) to pursue acts of charity, generosity, and comfort:
“Yes, as well as this terrible Good with a capital ‘G’, there is everyday human kindness. The kindness of an old woman carrying a piece of bread to a prisoner, the kindness of a soldier allowing a wounded enemy to drink from his water-flask, the kindness of youth towards age, the kindness of a peasant hiding an old Jew in his loft. The kindness of a prison guard who risks his own liberty to pass on letters written by a prisoner not to his ideological comrades, but to his wife and mother.”
These acts don’t ennoble the suffering but are instead justified on their own terms. Such altruism cannot become a catechism, as clearly lies in Alyosha’s destiny (and Karamazov was planned before Dostoyevsky's death as the first of two works); instead, our kindness must be senseless. And we should presume no salvation in adherence: Alyosha imagines a kind of sacred tutelage, but Ikonnikov is unceremoniously shot.
Karamazov doesn’t show true evil, and Dostoyevsky’s solution, such as it is, involves a kind of denial, or at least evasion through metaphysics. Grossman saw it directly, and instead argues, humanistically, that we should be kind just because.
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If Dostoyevsky came to his works by trying to understand and depict Russian society, they in turn became tapestries for others to understand national souls.
In the aftermath of WWI, Russia was the great power defined in opposition to the West. As Germany tried to rediscover its own soul in the wreckage of defeat, it looked east to Russia, and frequently to Dostoyevsky himself.
Carl Jung thought that the German people had a kind of Karamazovian quality. In particular, he believed that Christianity had disciplined them without fully transforming the impulses beneath their ostensibly civilized conduct: the “Germanic barbarian” was divided into upper and lower halves. Religion had domesticated the former while leaving the latter untamed. Waning faith consequently threatened to release forces that its authority had long restrained: “As the Christian view of the world loses its authority, the more menacingly will the ‘blond beast’ be heard prowling about in its underground prison, ready at any moment to burst out with devastating consequences. When this happens in the individual it brings about a psychological revolution, but it can also take a social form.”
Dostoyevsky was reputedly invoked on a weekly basis at Max Weber’s Sunday gatherings. At the beginning of Reflections of a Nonpolitical Man, Thomas Mann’s later-repudiated 1918 nationalist polemic, he quotes approvingly Dostoyevsky’s characterization of Germany as the “protesting Western empire”, never quite adopting or feeling at home with the inheritance of Rome. In the same year, Spengler wrote Decline of the West, and explicitly perceived in Russia a youthful vigor, primitiveness, and irrationality that contrasted with the senile high culture of the German and Western worlds. In Magic Mountain, Mann later used Clavdia Chauchat to personify the seductive dangers of Eastern (i.e. Russian) illogic.
Hermann Hesse declared that, for all their differences, Fyodor, Dmitri, Ivan, and Alyosha are actually all of one type; the Russian man. In them, he perceived that “the ideal of the Karamazov, primeval, Asiatic, and occult, is already beginning to consume the European soul”, which was leading to the downfall of Europe. In Hesse’s conception, the Russian man rejects inherited ethics and morals, and even beneficent Alyosha represents an “amoral impartiality.” Man is, Hesse says, halfway between animals and higher consciousness; the former restrained through the process of civilization and domestication. The Karamazovs represent the fraying of the ties.
Hesse proceeds, ominously, to notice that the Germans in particular are more vulnerable than any European people to the temptations of “all those evils which one may regard in different ways, but which collectively signify the Karamazov.” While he was prescient in anticipating some of what would follow, he was in the end too sanguine in his hope that the spiritual dislocation could remain limited to that. “It is possible that the whole Downfall of Europe will play itself out only inwardly, only in the souls of a generation, only in changing the meaning of worn-out symbols, in the dis-valuation of spiritual values.” Alas!
In general, it is interesting to trace the mutual obsession between Russia and Germany: how preoccupied each was with the respective supposedly corrupting influences; how urgent the question of the national soul was felt to be. Many of the analyses seem a bit contradictory—Hesse actually inverts Dostoyevsky, for whom “everything is permitted” nihilism is a Western import for which Russian Orthodoxy is the cure—but there’s a striking intensity in the attempts to apprehend.
Most of all, I’m struck by how anachronistic it all feels today: a country’s writers investigating the national soul and the nation’s fate through the lens of foreign literature.
Which novels or works of art do we use to understand our contemporary issues? Should we be using such works? Do they inform or do they mislead? Today, the US worries a lot about China, but this mostly manifests at the level of trade balances, AI policy, and military prowess. We don’t seem to worry much about the spiritual force of Chinese ideals, and for all of the policy fractiousness, China continues to import and absorb American culture with enthusiasm that is mostly undimmed. There is a genre of jeremiad and cultural analysis in the US that rhymes a little with early twentieth century German criticism, but it today tends to be much more clinical, hinging around PISA scores, smartphones, lower fertility, and not around higher aspirations and ideals as such. So, to what extent should there be analyses of the national soul? And to what extent should they connect with major novels and works of art?
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Much of communication is hard and obscurantist because we've all agreed to pretend that the relevant layer is *actions* when it's actually *intentions.*
Bob is a Very Bad Person who does evil stuff while using therapy-speak words like "setting boundaries" and "feeling attacked." Alice then criticizes the concept of boundaries, saying that it's just a tool for people to avoid responsibility for shitty behavior.
But this isn't actually a problem with boundaries. Bob just wants to be a shitty person. He will turn *literally anything* you give him towards the goal of being a shitty person. Every technique or method or action will be morphed, shifted, edge-cased, and straw-manned into a shape that allows Bob to pursue his actual goals because that is what it *means* for something to be a goal.
Be magnanimous and forgiving -> "Bless your heart"(fuck you) or "I'll pray for you"(also fuck you)
Ensure user safety(They are safe) -> "Ensuring user safety"(don't do any wrongthink or things that might get the company sued)
I need space(time to collect myself) -> "I need space"(I am punishing you with withdrawal with plausible deniability)
Being humble(being humble) -> being humble(show off that I am a better person than you by being more humble)
In all of these cases, the persons *actual intention* is one which their culture has build systems to suppress the expression of. This works in a sort of shoddy, half-baked way.
The intention always was primary. I mean think about what an action is in the first place, it takes you from one state to another- the only way you would ever even generate an action is if you were trying to navigate to some specific state, a goal.
Every system or technique or set of laws you build to suppress an intention WILL be twisted to fulfill those intentions again. The only way to stop this behavior completely is to just stop having the intention, which, well, easier said than done.
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the King of Thailand asked Luang Pu Dune which defilement to abandon first:
"Whichever defilement arises first, that's the one to abandon first."
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It’s easier to destroy than it is to create, but it’s easier to create than it is to simplify.
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A new parent learns that sleep is a skill the baby has to be taught. So is calm. Nobody stops needing that lesson at age two.
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I hereby reintroduce the concept of megabucks and gigabucks
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sometimes people ask me why I’ve chosen to be this sort of artist-busker-author figure rather than a STEMlord (which I was originally on track to become)
I just rediscovered an old quote from Rajaratnam (one of LKY’s closest colleagues) that really resonates for me still
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Good writing doesn't just transfer information, it crystallizes the author's way of perceiving the world into the text. Readers then inhabit that crystal and learn to replicate it within themselves. Good writing can be truly transformative in this way, showing you whole new modes of being.
It's tradition across most modern religions to memorize large sections of their holy text for this reason.
This can also be very very bad if said author is miserable and hates you. You're not inhabiting just the good, you're inhabiting all that they are.
There's a common manipulation tactic where Smart Guy tells you that you are a Bad Person and by listening to Him you can be a Good Person but it doesn't actually make you any better, it just makes you more neurotic.
This works particularly well on autists and people who have a strong drive to perceive themselves
The last psychiatrist does this, zizite stuff does this, a lot of more mainstream leftist stuff does this.
They are not even necessarily *wrong* about the specific insight, like the last psychiatrist’s narcissism. It’s just that the insight doesn’t make you better. It makes you miserable and hate yourself which is supposedly another example that the insight is true. The doom looping continues, you get more miserable, and you do not actually change.
If you are vulnerable to doom loops and want to consume their work anyway imo the best thing to do is Metta for equanimity and a somatic practice for grounding before and/or after engaging with them.
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After sleeping on this, I realize it's not just me and it's not just marketing.
If you use AI to do your work, all the emotionally easy parts will happen nigh instantly, plunging you straight toward your Ugh Fields. AI work requires you to confront feelings faster and faster.
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it feels weirdly fake to talk about stuff on twitter now that you could query an llm about… plausible deniability gone
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> Autopilot-shaped habits usually don't feel like habits, but like truths about the world.
>> Rushing doesn't feel like rushing, but like there isn't enough time.
>> Gripping doesn't feel like gripping, but like the thing you're working on is extremely important.
>> Judgement doesn't feel like judgement, but like someone or something is wrong and bad.
Habits that run on autopilot feel right and unremarkable.
So how can you notice and change them?
I was asked about that recently, and here's my answer:
expandingawareness.org/blog/…
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Loving-kindness got branded as being nice. It's closer to strength training for staying open when it would be easier to close.
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People always say you “visualize” when manifesting because being into manifestation is correlated with being good at visualization, but it doesn’t actually matter. Afaict visualizing is just a good way of generating a felt sense, which is the main driver*. I’m nearly aphantasic, manifestation still works super well for me.
You can use words to make a felt sense(prayer), or sounds, or smells, or external irl symbols you’re looking at, or you can work with a felt sense raw.
You can even read someone else’s writing and then attend to the felt sense generated by that! I’m pretty sure this is part of what’s going on when people chant a sutra continuously, you’re attuning your mind to the felt sense embedded in the writing.
It’s inverse gendlins focusing. Instead of generating words/images from bodily sensations you’re generating bodily sensations from words/images.
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Everything that is irrational either makes you laugh or frightens you. Laughter or fear: they are only reactions to get out of the ordinary." ~Alejandro Jodorowsky, Psychomagic
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a lot of people ask what evangelion is about and it’s about a lot of things but this is really one of the main things evangelion is about even if it didn’t have the data at the time just the vibe
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I learned this by getting extremely curious about the flinch that happens when I hit the “wrong note” playing music
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there was a guy in a documentary about getting addicted to world of warcraft that said, "at first, you just play when you have free time. but then you discover, you have a lot more free time than you thought." i routinely return to this as a source of motivation. i have the time
































