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alex balakrishnan

@chaikebaad

scottish/mallu in delhi🌼 instagram - alexanderbalakrishnan

 New Delhi, India
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Joined October 2020
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One thing that drives me insane is when people see my Instagram and say "oh you're posting! khush toh hoge, agar itne depressed hote toh you wouldn't post" and get mad at me for not meeting and socialising. like bro, its the one and only half job i can do, let me post
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The thing that strikes me as unfair is many suicidal people genuinely want to be allowed to die. And no amount of therapy really helps those who are chemically depressed, like literally the neurons in my brain keep saying "kill yourself, kill yourself" on and on
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But yeah, it's frikkin miserable. Most people don't have the side effect fatigue. According to chatgpt (don't roll your eyes, I've been to 7 psychiatrists and they haven't had a better answer). Apparently some people have a slow metaboliser in their liver which takes too long to
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process seratonin, and so it just gets clogged up and makes them sleepy. So I tried Bupropion (noradrenaline + dopamine, no seratonin) and I had a totally different adverse reaction to Bupropion, way worse than Seratonin drugs So yeahhhh :3 that's where I stand
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I know i sound repetetive af but like this is the only place i can vent about killing myself so yeahhh
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alex balakrishnan retweeted
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Satyam Rajput@Satyam_yt1Nov 12
🚨 URGENT: My brother is critical with severe pancreatitis. After 2 months in hospital, including 1 month in ICU at Sharda Hospital, doctors referred him to AIIMS Delhi. We've tried repeatedly, but no ICU bed is available. Please help arrange urgent admission. @JPNadda @PMOIndia
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Hearing loss in one ear from crackers, stray cat i rescued scratched my eye and now theres a faint line in my vision. God i hate living in india and the constant chaos of it. Something constantly poking. No peace ever
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urghh every day is an absolute drag!! making videos and the stimulation of instagram can sometimes ease the suicidal feelings but a lot of days its not enoughhh. good days are feeling like killing myself 5-6 times, bad days its like a constant nonstop desire
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manifesting legal painless suicide🤞🤞🤞
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strong believer in allowing suicidal ppl to kill themselves instead of having to go through expensive therapies which sometimes work and meds also which only sometimes work
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Looking forward to joining @inBritish for an evening of poetry and conversation around All That’s Left Behind, as part of the UK’s #NationalYearOfReading. I’ll be in conversation with my dear friend, @chaikebaad. Join us! 🩷 🔗 Register here: britishcouncil.in/events/cul…
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One week of indulging and phirse paet nikalaaya
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hi from karkardooma
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Image from alex balakrishnan (@chaikebaad)
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How to get over my fear of flying urgh, its fucking me up so much. Like not normal "oh im scared" kinda fear. Proper terror
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how the night started vs how the night ended! if your outfit includes an egg it's probably inevitable that this is going to happen at some point in the night!👻 #happyhalloween #dollybindra
Image from alex balakrishnan (@chaikebaad)
Image from alex balakrishnan (@chaikebaad)
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