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Birdy // 30+ // if loving hange out loud was a career // I draw, write, ramble // FUBM // levihan 💜💚// ENG // Google 翻訳を使います 번역 사용 // banner by @monoceles

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In ch 13 of “To Have & To Hold”, Levi & Hange celebrate the new year along with the new era approaching. Levi recalls his turmoil in the night before Shiganshina. In a crisis of faith, he chooses to live by his own strength, however fragile. (explicit) tinyurl.com/5n8hntt9
In chapter 11 of “To Have and To Hold”, a new era of the Survey Corps is ushered in by Comm. Hange's recruitment speech. A celebratory banquet reaffirms a shared humanity, prompting Levi and Hange to get physically reacquainted again. Explicit rating 🫡 🔗archiveofourown.org/works/79…
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I was hesitant sometimes to analyze some of the smart pass stories in case the fan translations were off, but I own all the official physical copies now and found they are spot on! some interesting tidbits from them:
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Not to disrespect the work of fan translators tho! I don’t know an ounce of Japanese, so I just don’t feel confident enough to be an authority on the language. In cross referencing, I see the translations are almost identical to the official ones w/ very minor differences.
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a photo that changed not only the world within the walls, but the world itself
Grisha, Dina, and Zeke's family photo
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extremely cringe but in some ways Hange is like an angelic figure in my eyes? just in the sense of existing in this whole other plane of like, no I can never touch you but I want to grab hold of the things and feelings that come even an ounce close to what you make me feel
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it’s like chasing the wind, and finding that along the way there are real things and pieces of hange that exist in this world. and being carried by the belief that if they don’t exist yet, we have the power to create them. for me, Hange makes life fuller and brighter in every way
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Hange is the light leading the way out of the forest btw
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genuinely touched every day that a chara like Hange exists, esp in an era of such divide. the world would be a better place with more Hange’s in it
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I would really like to post the next chapter but my selfish ass wants to be validated too, esp since it’ll be what I was leading up to all year. Ao3 come back im fired up !!
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I’ve had this thing written since this time year !! Time flies
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so I know I’m very levihan brain rotted but overall I’m interested most in many dynamics and relationships of all sorts- not only romantic ones. The emotional experience of these charas sometimes fall by the wayside, so the way my mind works, I find it fun to fill in the blanks!
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there’s a lot of good bones in the shared history between these charas, but even with AoT being a plot driven story first and foremost, there’s still so much to mine from when it comes to how it all felt for them, what was said, what wasn’t said too.
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another Hange and Historia crumb, how Hange is the one who points out that rod must be killed. a father historia has only just met is now a threat to mankind, and to her own personhood.
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I do love the way the anime frames it too, with Hange’s bloodstained hand pointing to rod. But the framing here with Eren is excellent too, another who was cursed by the blood of the father
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this is hange zoë
This is genuinely my life philosophy
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Feeling extremely corny tonight as I think on how what I love most about art- whether it’s poetry or film, fic or television- is the novelty of seeing someone put the words from what feels like my own heart to paper. a moment of connection with a person I’ve never even met.
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I think that’s why it can be so hard to express the emotion art stirs in us. it feels too intimate, too personal, almost juvenile. how can you even begin to express that level of connection without the language for it? and yet the attempt of expression in and of itself is magic.
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This wonderful art comes from one of my fav levihan fics I’ve still never commented on, but will amend as soon as it’s back up! The texture of Gardenia’s writing for Hange, Levi, and even Erwin is something so special that I keep a doc open for my own ideas inspired by her words!
I've said this on ao3 and I'm saying it again, I'm totally in love in this art, and I feel so honored that it was inspired by Hange as portrayed in one of my fics. Thank you, @moneceles !
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Not sure if you’re all aware but Gardenia is currently writing an erurihan fic I’m salivating to read. I think my fav thing about your writing is how incredible Erwin’s writing is- the moral complexity woven w/ his humanity, in his voice exactly. I know of no better Erwin writer!
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pussy from eruhan
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I’ve wanted to do an ACE score chart for the vets but you really have to change the framework for their universe + there’ll be a higher baseline anyway. But besides the trauma of being a scout, my feeling is that levi ranks the highest, then erwin, and hange ranks the lowest.
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imho hange feels very secure, like someone who glides about life knowing there’s a safety net somehow. a person so free very rarely comes out from a lifetime of sustained trauma. So it’s a testament to Hange’s resilience that their curiosity + love for life is never truly dimmed!
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can we collectively fully embrace fearful avoidant levi ackerman
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that + cptsd is the basis for all of my writing on Levi, given the level of trauma he’s endured and never given back. really love when others see that selflessness in him and portray him being cared for and held with compassion and honesty
Replying to @hangestaint
Using the framework of complex ptsd + fearful avoidant attachment, it can be said that Levi almost has to hold himself at a distance from others. he’s enslaved to his own strength and leans into the role of “monster”, reinforcing the childhood belief that he deserves nothing.
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getting to read and appreciate all my friends beautiful fics bc they have amazing insight and bring these charas to life so well and remembering we’re friends bc of this mutual love for levi and hange
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something I forgot to add: Hange’s horrified expression here is at recounting Historia’s initial agreement to inherit the beast, thereby damning herself and her children for the sake of the Paradis. I love that Hange finds it an abhorrent option even in the game!
some more new hange! is it the art style that’s too erotic or is it Hange making it so
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Hange- and Eren, find no peace in comprising Historia and her figure children for the sake of tenuous safety. It is appropriately seen as a sacrifice bc the undercurrent of Hange’s beliefs is well being for all, versus some. That’s the split between the Jaegerists and Alliance.
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tired Hange asking Levi be a human weighted blanket, not even talking, just laying on top of them when tired so they can both rest for a little while
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This happened many of times. I have no proof whatsoever but I’ll tell you that it did behind closed doors 🥺
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some more new hange! is it the art style that’s too erotic or is it Hange making it so
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my fav thing is “missing scenes” type of extra content, so an intel mission sounds super interesting. this might be right before the wine incident! bc Hange never trusted Zeke. that’s a misconception stemming from the fact that Paradis was railroaded into going along w/ his plan.
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for new readers, I’ll be hosting my fics on a drive soon! The link here leads to a doc w/ the latest update of my main fic. The story is about Hange’s survival, beginning w/ post Shiganshina- the immediate aftermath of Erwin’s death, rebuilding the corps + Levi and Hange’s bond.
In ch 13 of “To Have & To Hold”, Levi & Hange celebrate the new year along with the new era approaching. Levi recalls his turmoil in the night before Shiganshina. In a crisis of faith, he chooses to live by his own strength, however fragile. (explicit) tinyurl.com/5n8hntt9
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The chapter is heavy on Levi angst, but is disconnected enough from the main story that you could jump in and understand. I do use she/her pronouns for Hange, bc the fic is 200k words, so I stick w/ a set. Hange being nb is a thread in the story, as is exploring gender identity.
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new hanges but also new info! - player chara’s backstory revealed - first expedition as a squad leader was in 845; outside of shiganshina - so disastrous it traumatized from fighting titans ever again - now focused on mechanics and training new recruits - largely a mentor role
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I think this is Moses Braun, a possible relative of Reiner, as his mother is the one who weeps to Shadis, begging for a reason why he had to die. this is what leads to Erwin becoming commander- a traumatic mission on many fronts! will be interesting to be part of that day
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